Saturday, November 29, 2008

A smile moment and finding similarities between Gregory and me

Last night as I was putting Gregory to bed:
He has his bear named two with him and his doggy that is unnamed so far.
Mommy – “What is your doggy’s name?”
Gregory – “Uh uh twenty-two.”
Mommy – “What?”
Gregory – “twenty-two”

Gregory certainly likes the number two.

**

Today at the playground:
Gregory is running around by himself. There are many other children, but he acts like they aren’t there.
A while later all but one of the other children leave.
Gregory starts interacting with the boy. I am guessing he is two or three years older than Gregory. Gregory talked to him and even suggested things to do, like race. Gregory also tried to get the boy to play with mulch which is imaginary food. I don’t think the boy understood what Gregory was suggesting though.
I stayed at the playground longer than I would have because it isn’t often Gregory interacts with other children. Most of the time he just goes off on his own. I have noticed that when there are only one or two other kids Gregory tries to play with them.

Observing this a few times it is funny how much Gregory and I are alike. When I am in a big group I tend to disappear and just do my own thing. On the other hand when I am around one or two other people I find myself joining in more.
I do like being around people I just find crowds overwhelming.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Nothing much

I don’t have much to write about other than random stuff.

It is hard to believe that Thanksgiving was yesterday. Days just go by so quickly. Cullen, Gregory, and I went over to my Dad’s and had a nice dinner. They also gave us some leftovers to take home. So, we didn’t have to cook, but we had leftovers. I would say that is pretty great.

Today we went shopping. Yes, I know black Friday ugh, but we went shopping at a store which is the slowest on black Friday. Can you guess? We went to the grocery store. We had leftovers, but we were out of all the essentials, like milk, bread, and things like that.

If you feel Gregory’s head you can tell where he hit it. It was about an inch long. It is healing up. The one good thing is that you can’t see the cut, because he has so much hair. I just feel so bad that he hit his head. I can’t help but think I should have taken him to the emergency room. The main thing is that he is doing well now. Nothing will slow my busy boy down, except for sleep.
An hour ago Gregory climbed up on my lap. He got real cozy and fell asleep. It just felt so good to hold him in my arms.

Pregnancy has given me so many headaches. I have one almost every day. I still have morning sickness too, yuck. Then today Cullen woke up and couldn’t move his neck. I massaged it a bit, but he is still in pain.

So now I get to go and try to wake up Gregory, so he will get some sleep tonight. If he isn’t ready to wake up it is almost impossible.
Maybe tomorrow will be a bit more exciting, but I don’t want it head bashing exciting.

Smiles!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Look what Gregory made.


112208 Christmas card Gregory made for Daddy
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Today Gregory and I sat down with construction paper, scissors, a hole puncher, markers, and a glue stick. We ended up with a Christmas card for Daddy. I cut the shapes for the tree and the presents and wrote the message inside. Gregory used the hole puncher to make the Christmas tree ornaments, he decided where to put everything and he glued it all together. Finally he took the markers and colored the inside of the card.
Gregory basically made the card all by himself and he was very proud of it.

The inside of the card


112208 Christmas card Gregory made for Daddy inside of card
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Friday, November 21, 2008

A bloody mess!

As a blind mother I face challenges that a mother with good vision may not face.
For example:
Tonight Gregory and I were playing play dough at the table. Gregory is sitting funny and the chair tips over. The lower half of his body has gone through the back of the chair where the hole is and his upper half is still where it should be if he was actually sitting. At this point Gregory is crying hard. I know he must be in pain, because he rarely cries. I get him untangled from the chair and hold him and rock him. He let me know that his back hurt. I felt his back and he seemed ok. I gave it a kiss and he told me it was all better even though I could still tell he was in pain. He stopped crying. I wiped his eyes and we went back to playing play dough. Shortly after Gregory didn’t want to play anymore so we put it away.
Here is where having good vision would have helped things.
I put the play dough back on top of the book shelf and came back to Gregory. For some reason I rubbed Gregory’s head. On the back of his head was some wet sticky stuff. It took me a moment and then my heart started racing. I felt the back of his neck and shirt they were both wet. I was freaking out on the inside. It was one of two things juice or blood. I was pretty sure it was blood. I picked up Gregory and took him out into the stairway. I knocked on two of my neighbor’s doors and they didn’t answer. I just wanted someone who could see to take a look. I felt his head but couldn’t feel too much because it was painful for him. There wasn’t gushing blood, but I just wanted someone sighted to look so I could be sure.
I called a neighbor in a building in very close walking distance and they weren’t there but her mom was. So, I took Gregory over. She looked at him and helped me clean him up a bit. We determined it wasn’t too bad. I already knew that head wounds bleed a lot.
I walked Gregory back home and fed him dinner. After I was done cleaning up the dishes I grabbed the top of my shirt and felt something. It turns out that I had Gregory’s blood all over my shirt. My neighbor didn’t say anything, because I had my winter coat on the whole time I was over.
I am just so glad Gregory is alright.
Right now I wish I could just sit down with a glass of wine and breathe, but because pregnancy and drinking don’t go well together I think I will just have a bowl of M&M’s.

What a day!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The good and the bad

As more days go by with me as a stay at home mom again each day gets better. It is as if Gregory and I are working are day situations out. Today as an example went very well. It seems as if the year I was working Gregory quit playing with his toys. Now almost every day Gregory has his trains out and he is getting more and more creative with them. He also plays with his other toys but his trains are his favorite. While I was working Gregory rarely pulled out his trains to play.
Then after play time Gregory puts away his toys. He even does it most times without even being asked.
When it is time to cook Gregory always wants to help. Anything I ask him to help with he does. He will throw out trash, mix, put things in the microwave, get out dishes, and help set the table. After we are done eating Gregory helps clear the table and the messes he can clean up he helps clean.
We are getting a nice little routine down.

Things I am trying to forget right now:

- I still have pretty bad morning sickness.
- I get a headache almost every day. It is nothing too major but still hurts.
- My Grandma (dad’s side) was in the hospital a week and now is back home. She is doing better.
- My Grandpa (mom’s side) is not doing well and probably won’t be around too long. They gave him a week last week and he made it to this week.
- I feel like crying when I think about it and so I haven’t posted much about it. I am doing my best trying to focus on the happy stuff.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Thank goodness for friends

Sunday afternoon my friend, Caitlin, came over. It was very nice to see her. I worked with her before I quit. So, I also got an update on all the craziness that is going on there. I can truly say I am glad I quit when I did.

This is the list of entertainment I provided Caitlin with:
- A magna doodle to draw on. She didn’t have to think of what to draw. Gregory did that for her.
- Play dough so she could express her creative side.
- We went fishing, with Gregory’s magnetic fish. From what I know of people who fish all the time it is relaxing. Caitlin caught many fish.
- We also watched a movie “101 Dalmatians.” It is a classic.

Besides that we went to dinner. Gregory fell asleep in the car on the way there. So, dinner was pretty relaxing.

I really had a good time. It was just so nice to get that adult time in even though we were doing activities that were more child centered. Based on the way I have been feeling lately that visit was much needed. My batteries are recharged.

***

One more thing I wanted to add it that Gregory has a new phrase that he has been saying all the time.

Mommy – “Do you want some water?”
Gregory – “No, not really.”

Mommy – “Do you have to go potty?”
Gregory – “Not really.”

For all answers that are not a yes I get either a “No, not really” or a “not really” response.
It is very cute.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

What do you want to be?

You know how it is hard to figure out what you want to be or what you want to do. Gregory has already figured that all out.

Gregory – “Mommy I want to be a mover.”
Mommy – “You want to be an imagination mover?”
Gregory – “Yes.”
Mommy – “Great, now get up and dance.”
Gregory looked at me and just continued sitting on the big chair watching the imagination movers on the Disney Channel.
I am sure he was thinking I was a bit nuts asking him to dance. If he knew about the eye roll I am sure he would have done that. I wouldn’t have even noticed though because of my vision. I am sure I will be getting plenty of funny looks from Gregory as he gets older. I do think that because I can not see those looks Gregory will stay out of some trouble. He just better make sure daddy doesn’t catch him.

Friday, November 14, 2008

bath time = play time

This morning I decided I wanted to take a bath. Gregory who needs to know where his mommy is and what she is doing opened the bathroom door and came in.
He looked at me and said “you take a bath.”
Me – “yes.”
Gregory – “You need bath toys.” This was not a question it was a statement.
Me – “No Gregory I am fine no toys.”
Gregory – Coming running back to my bathroom “here Mommy.”
He then started pulling all his toys out of the bath toy basket and throwing them in my bathwater.
Me – “That’s enough Gregory, Thank you.” and then in a yell “Cullen!”

Cullen came and got Gregory out of the bathroom and I took the rest of my bath in peace.

Even though I didn’t want any bath toys I thought it was nice for Gregory to think of my need to have fun in the tub.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

How Mommy tortures Gregory.

At night I sing to Gregory songs like:
Twinkle Twinkle little star
The itsy bitsy spider
I’m a little teapot
ABC’s

He loves it when I sing to him.

BUT

During the day if I sing anything I hear this:

Gregory – “Mommy quit singing.”

If I keep singing I hear:

Gregory – “NO, STOP SINGING, NO! PLEEEEASE!”

He says it in a way that one can assume I am torturing him in a very painful way.

So, either my voice is awful in the morning and gets better at the end of the day,
OR
Gregory is too tired to care about what I sound like at bedtime.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Please excuse my pity party

Potty training so far – good day / bad day / good day / bad day / etc...
All I can say is eventually.
One of the problems now is Gregory doesn’t like it when he has an accident. That is a good thing but the bad part is that he wants a diaper and because we won’t put one on him he throws a fit.
I would want the easy way out too.
I am sticking to this.

Unfortunately I am feeling isolated. I haven’t gone out much due to the potty training. I am also missing all the adult social time I had when I was working.
I just don’t have any friends that are close enough to just come over every now and then.
The issue is that whoever I spend time with has to be willing to drive or be in close enough proximity by bus that it isn’t going to take me hours to get to them.
It is hard not being able to reciprocate the driving thing. So, I just need someone who really wants to spend time together and won’t feel taken advantage of because I am not doing the driving.

Mom’s clubs are another problem, because I have tried them but it isn’t easy. I can’t see and with many children I have a hard time keeping track of Gregory and talking to other moms. It is one or the other. I would rather just not do it if I have to track Gregory in a sea of children. The other option is have another mom watch Gregory, but they aren’t keeping as much attention on him and then I am burdening them with watching my child. Also if there is food I can not see the food well enough to get my own or Gregory’s. So, I am making more trouble for another person.

So, I have decided if a person really wants to be my friend they have to really want it, because as the way I see it I am more work than a normal friend.
Much of the time I feel like a burden.

I am all set in my own home because I know where things are and I can cook and do everything I need to. The thing is we live in a two bedroom condo. There is just not too much room. It is enough and I am happy with it. Though compared to so many people in this area we have a much smaller place. So, not to sound funny but I feel like I am squashing people when they come over. I feel as if I should almost apologize for not having a huge living room. I know it is weird and I worry too much.
Ah well I am lonely.

I also still have been having morning sickness, so I feel like crap half the day. I really hope it will get better soon. I am 13 weeks along in my pregnancy.

Ending this pity party on a good note.
I know I did the right thing by quitting my job to be home with Gregory.
Gregory is just doing 100 times better with me at home, both health wise and emotionally.
The house is so much cleaner.
We have home cooked food.
The budget is so much better and we have practically the same amount of money (well a little less).
The best part is that we actually get to see each other again.
AND
Yea I am having a baby!

Monday, November 10, 2008

In the mood to bake


111008 Homemade Cinnamon Rolls3
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Yesterday while Cullen was at work I made some bread. You know how you have to let the dough rise. Well, I told Gregory that I was making bread. He kept telling me he wanted bread. I had to tell him it wasn’t ready and that he could have some in the morning. The bread wouldn’t be finished baking until nine at night.
I put the bread in the oven and put my sweet child to bed at 8:30.
Gregory was silent and didn’t get out of bed even once. I was sure he was asleep.
Then the oven timer went off. Before I even had a chance to get off the couch Gregory comes running out of his room asking “Bread ready”.
I don’t know how Gregory got so clever, but I guessed he figured if he was good I couldn’t turn him down once the bread was finished.
So, I told him to sit on the couch and I got him some hot bread and butter and a glass of chocolate milk. He liked it so much he asked for more and I gave him a second piece.
After his bedtime snack I sent him back to bed.

Then this morning I was craving some cinnamon rolls. I decided I was in a do it yourself kind of mood. I really don’t understand why I want to bake so much lately. So, I got on the internet and looked up a recipe. Cullen is off today so we made them together. It took us five hours to make but they were soooo good. Oh and now I know why cinnamon rolls are so fattening. I couldn’t believe how much butter we used to make them.

Gregory is down for his nap and after that cinnamon roll I ate I think I am headed the same way soon.
Oh and this picture is of some of the cinnamon rolls we made. There is a second dish full too.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

The past few days

- Killer headache.
- Morning sickness is sickening.
- Potty training is a hard and dirty job.
- How do you keep a three year old happy when you feel like crap?
- Tomorrow I have got to feel better.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

An award from September



I do think everyone knows how crazy things were with my life lately. You know the quitting of the job and the pregnancy thing. Well, way back in September Courtney gave me an award and I wanted to thank her.

So thank you Courtney.
I enjoy her blog and reading about her two girls.
Her life has been a bit crazy lately with worries about her girls and her health.
So, I am thinking feel good thoughts for her.

Now back to the scheduled program of potty training. I have to wake the sleeping child up from his nap or he won’t get any sleep tonight.
Maybe I will pass the award on later but for now I wanted to make sure I put it up.
Have a good night.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Gregory and the Potty Training Adventures - Written By Mommy

About six months ago Gregory was starting to use the potty. He was going to preschool and doing pretty well. Mommy and Daddy were happy. They only had to clean up a few accidents. For the most part Gregory was doing a good job.

Then disaster struck and Mommy and Daddy were going to lose the babysitter that watched Gregory after preschool. Mommy and Daddy couldn’t afford to pay a new babysitter $15 an hour. All the babysitters in all the world around Northern Virginia decided they would take no less than $15 per hour. So poor Gregory had to leave preschool and go back to Ms. Linda. Ms. Linda didn’t care about all the work that had gone into potty training and didn’t work with Gregory. So, Gregory ended up back in diapers. This made Mommy and Daddy very frustrated.

Then one day about two weeks ago Mommy quit her job. So, now Mommy watches Gregory all day. Yesterday Mommy decided to start potty training again. Mommy is afraid that it won’t work and Gregory will just wet his pants for the rest of his life.
(On a positive note if Gregory does this there are adult diapers.)

There was no success yesterday.
Today so far Gregory went in the potty once. He has had several accidents though.
Pull-ups are also not an option, because Gregory doesn’t care and he uses them just like a diaper.
Stickers won’t work unless we give him the whole sheet of stickers and Mommy isn’t buying that many stickers. Mommy tried to give Gregory only one once and Gregory had a melt down. Melt down’s and potty training don’t mix.

What we are left with is praise.

And the potty training adventures continue.
Stay tuned for an update later on this month.

Also of all the adventures in having children Mommy is the most worried about her ability to conquer this one.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

A busy Halloween

Yesterday was busy. In the morning we went searching in IKEA for a bunk bed for Gregory. I wanted to get him a new bed early enough before the new baby comes so he doesn’t feel like we have given away his bed. The bed he used was his crib converted into a toddler bed. Well now we can turn it back into a crib. I really don’t want Gregory to feel like he is losing his place in the family. We got back and Cullen put the bed together. He did a very good job too. You know Gregory was sound asleep the whole time. He finally woke up at 6:30. We fed him and took our little football player out trick-or-treating. It took Gregory a couple of houses before he got relaxed and excited enough to really start having fun. By the end of the night Gregory’s bag was too heavy for him to carry. This was not because we went to so many houses, but because every house we went to told Gregory to take more candy. He not only got candy but he also got some McDonalds toys. I guess Halloween is one way to get rid of those toys.

Cullen had fun carving the pumpkin last night too. It was a bit last minute but hey he had fun. I got to pull the guts out. Gregory didn’t want to touch it, because he has this thing where he doesn’t like to have dirty hands. I like pumpkin guts, because they are nice and slimy. Yes, I like the feel of slimy things. That is as long as they aren’t nasty, you know things that no one wants to ever touch.

Then bedtime took a long time last night. Gregory was excited about his new bed and so I had to work a lot harder getting him to sleep. He was on the bottom bunk, then the top, then the bottom, then the top, then the bottom, and he kept running out of his room. Finally I told him a bit more firmly “go to bed”. Ten minutes later I checked in and Gregory was fast asleep on the top bunk.
I wanted him to sleep on the bottom because I felt safer with him there, but I figured he was a stubborn three year old and it would just be a huge battle so I let him be. I also figured if he couldn’t get down he could call for me. Gregory tends to know what he can do and what he can’t. Well, as far as climbing goes anyway. He had also been up and down the latter about ten times last night. This morning he got down just fine.

It was a good day for the three of us.

My football boy ready for candy


103108 Gregory's footbal costume
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

GRRRRRRR.....


103108 Gregory's footbal costume2
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Cullen's pumpkin carving


103108 Pumpkin
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Pumpkin in the dark


103108 Pumpkin2
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

Gregory’s new bunkbed


110108 Gregory's bunkbed
Originally uploaded by smileahug.

He loves it. The top bunk has Cars sheets on it and the bottom bunk has spider man sheets.