Thursday, September 25, 2008
The one bit of positive news is that the chance of me losing this baby has dropped quite a bit because there is a heartbeat, a wonderful heartbeat.
I am a bit down lately. I am just so tired and feel lousy. I am having some morning sickness. It is a bit strange but things from the breads/cereals category are very unsettling to my stomach. I am missing out on a lot of carbs that I am use to having.
Also because of all this I haven’t done anything but go to work and come home and sleep. Except for writing this and the stuff about Gregory’s birthday. I can’t barely make time for anything but sleeping. I am also done with the whole five hour work commute thing. And the booking system at work sucks. Finances are also frustrating. There is just so much and I just find myself crying.
I am so greatful for Gregory. I was crying on the big chair this evening and Gregory came and sat down next to me on the chair. He had his book and started looking through it and naming pictures. He is such a wonderful gift, my child. Gregory sure has made my life so much brighter. He won’t let my life collapse in on to me.
Well I am going to try to go to sleep. Stress has kept me awake lying in bed. It is hard having morning sickness and being overly emotional.
I do miss my bloggy friends and will be around when I get a break from this emotional stuff.
Monday, September 22, 2008
He went to an awesome place for his birthday. Cullen and I took him up to a place called PlayWiseKids.
Gregory just loved it. He played in the sand. He climbed in a truck, fire truck, and ambulance. He drove around in the little cars that use feet power to get around. He ran in and out of different play houses and a castle. He played with big blocks and Lego’s. We even played air hockey and shot hoops. There were a few more things. It was awesome.
It took us about an hour and half to get to. I do wish there was a closer one, but the drive was worth it.
We then went to Grandpa and Nana’s house. We had dinner, cake, and ice cream. Nana made the cake. Gregory is hooked on Diego right now so Nana made him a Diego cake.
Like last year we all sung happy birthday and Gregory cried. I guess it is intimidating when everyone is staring and singing to you. He blew out his three candles and we all ate.
Gregory got a play tool set, a game, a blanket, and some cool new clothes for his birthday.
Over all I think he had a great day.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Also amazing is after eight months and three years they are having conversations with you and think they can do everything. The crazy part is that they can; maybe not at age three, but with time it is all possible. With Gregory’s determination, I know, when the time comes, he will get where ever he wants to go.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
He splashed in his pool.
He played at the playground.
He kept Mommy very busy.
Then he fell asleep at 7.
Gregory usually goes to sleep around 9:30 – 10 PM and wakes around 7 AM.
Mommy had a very bad feeling about this.
He slept some more.
Mommy went to bed.
Daddy got home from work and went to bed.
“Mommy I want Grover Juice”
“Mommy I need Grover juice”
“Gregory go to bed”
(Nudge) (ok it was more like a shove)
“Honey get up, Gregory wants juice, I need more sleep”
Cullen gets up.
Mommy wakes back up ten minutes later.
All the house lights are on.
Daddy’s sleeping on the couch.
Gregory is running wild.
Mommy goes and turns off all the lights.
Mommy gets back in bed.
Gregory gets the idea and crawls into bed with Mommy.
Gregory and Mommy in big bed and Daddy on the couch.
Time to get up.
This is because; let me say, a child such as Gregory goes shopping with his daddy.
At the grocery store a decision as to which juice must be purchased has to be made.
The daddy starts to pick a nice looking bottle off the shelf.
Then from with in the cart the child lets his juice choice be known “No, daddy I want Grover juice”.
The daddy then puts back the juice he was holding trying to figure out what his son is speaking of.
Daddy spots the white grape juice with a picture of Grover from Sesame Street on the label.
Daddy picks up the juice and places it in the cart.
For after all juice with a picture of Grover must taste better than juice with no Grover.
Monday, September 15, 2008
091508 Gregory in pool
Originally uploaded by smileahug.
Gregory does love to splash. He splashes and splashes. He was in the pool for over two hours today. Of course I am left with some wet pants too, but we both have fun. Oh and we also blew bubbles.
Yes this is on our balcony.
Originally uploaded by smileahug.
Gregory got two packages in the mail today. One from Grandma and one from Great Grandma. He got some cute clothes and a few other little surprises. His birthday is this next Sunday the 21st. He will be three. If you ask him right now how old he is he will say:
“Three on my dirthday”
You don’t think he is excited or anything do you?
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Cullen had to work today. The nice thing about working at some stores is you know what is on the sale rack. Yes Cullen works at a Grocery store but they sale other things. He came home with a little blow up swimming pool. It is much nicer than the little bin I have been using for Gregory. Gregory also likes it very much. It only cost one dollar and change. My jeans are still wet from Gregory’s splashing.
Things haven’t been very splashing at work lately. With the new booking system I ended up doing no massages this past Thursday. Hopefully it doesn’t affect my pay check too much. It is depressing though. So, instead of working at work I listen to books on my iPod and I have made those baby blankets I posted up a while ago and I also have been making pot holders and dish cloths. I like using cloth because I can just stick it in the wash after one use. I just never feel sponges are quite clean enough for me. I also use a clean washcloth every time I shower. I think I own around forty wash cloths. Cullen uses a spongy thing to wash himself with. I am a bit crazy on that aspect. Most of my friends use sponges to do their dishes. So, I tend to think I am the strange one.
Speaking about bathroom stuff. Cullen bought himself a new toothbrush. This fact alone is a bit dull, but the thing about Cullen being red/green color blind makes it a bit more interesting. He didn’t realize it until he got home, but he is now an owner of a pink toothbrush. How cute (snort).
The connection to snorting is that dogs snort and my sister says Writer is doing well. I really miss her. She was such a good guide dog. My sister has a cocker spaniel who is (I think) a year older than Writer. Writer is ten years old. Cookie (the cocker) would eat whenever because Amanda (my sister) would just leave food down for her. Writer on the other hand would eat and eat and eat if you left food down all the time. So, Cookie is on a new eating schedule. She finally got the idea if I don’t eat now I won’t get to eat till dinner and now gobbles up her food.
Food is lovely isn’t it? I am not sure what I am having for dinner tonight, but Cullen made the best mashed potatoes the other day. I just figured I would mention it because of the name of my blog.
Speaking of my blog I don’t blog nearly as much as I did when I first started. My blog is more like a journal of important things to me. So I only really write when I feel like I have something that should be here. Things I want to remember. I write about things that have affected my life.
When I was in high school I had a problem with depression. I still get depressed although not as deeply as I was then. I think everyone has their days that they need a lift. One thing I do is go back to my blog and pick a month. Usually I have written about something that made me happy. Especially now with Gregory there is so many smile moments with him. I read the old posts and then I have a memory that has lifted me up and made me happy. The problem I had was that when I was sad I couldn’t think of things to make me happy. It was like I couldn’t remember anything at all. Now I just have to look in my archives.
One thing I want to archive is that I have hormones taking over a bit. I am excited but am still a bit nervous. I am pregnant! I am only five weeks along. The nerve part comes because this is my fifth pregnancy. I have had three miscarriages. One before Gregory and two after. I am praying this one will stick and I will end up with a healthy baby. I have a good feeling about this one. So if you could, say a little prayer.
The reason I decided I wanted to mention this is because the support I get from my blog friends helps to make the happy things happier and the sad things more bearable.
So, everyone enjoy the last couple minutes of your weekend.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Gregory wanted to call daddy before he went to sleep. So I dialed his number and gave the phone to Gregory. Cullen did not pick up and so it went to voice mail.
Gregory said hi and a few other things.
Then I told Gregory to say bye-bye.
Gregory said “Daddy’s not talking” and then closed the phone.
I guess Gregory doesn’t quite understand the whole message thing yet.
Cullen felt bad about missing the call.
This tag is named “YESTERDAY ONCE MORE”!
1. In which month and year did you met your husband for the first time?
I met Cullen in 1997 probably October. I moved to Virginia two weeks after school started and he was the boy down the road. We were both in 10th grade.
2. In which month and year did you two officially starting dating?
3. Where was the first dating place the two of you went to?
We went to the homecoming dance at school.
4. What was the most touching thing he did to you when you two were still dating?
He would walk me to and from the school bus.
5. How about after your marriage?
He gets me my water and vitamin almost every night.
6. Share your lowest period of your life with him.
A while back we were both depressed for different reasons and just didn’t care about much. The nice thing is the fog lifted and life is looking up.
7. Share your happiest moment with him?.
The day Gregory was born.
8. Share your saddest moment with him.
The first time I was pregnant I miscarried and we were both heart broken.
9. Share your angriest moment with him.
Cullen likes to play World of Warcraft and he was ignoring the world around him. So, I kicked his computer and left a dent in the side.
10. Share your funniest moment with him.
I can’t think of one funniest moment. We make each other laugh over strange things though. One moment, but I am quite sure it isn’t the funniest (my mind is not quite processing memories too well right now) Cullen and I were in the car and there was an advertisement for a car dealership. For the next five minutes we were just pronouncing the car dealership name different ways, putting emphasis on different syllables. Finally we stopped and cracked up laughing.
11. Share your most frustrated moment with him.
Cullen decided some bills didn’t need to be paid, or rather he just didn’t bother.
12. Lastly, when was the last time you two hold hands and walk under the moonlight, like how you used to do?
Too long ago. I think we need to get a babysitter for an evening.
This is a question I just made up:
13. Write a sentence about how you feel about him right now.
I know that Cullen and I have many more years together, because even though there are things that we don’t like in each other there are more that we do like and these things make it all worth it. You know the little things.
Monday, September 08, 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
Since I am on the subject of chicken pox I thought I would write about a memory. The chicken pox vaccination is relatively new and yes I am only 26, but back then it wasn’t around. This is what my parents decided to do to vaccinate me.
I can’t remember how old I was, but let’s just say it was for my fifth or sixth birthday. Around my birthday of that year some of my friends had chicken pox and some did not. So my parents gave me two parties that year. I had my friends who were pox free come over for a party. Then I had all my friends with chicken pox come over for another party. It was awesome. This was my parent’s bright idea of a chicken pox vaccination. Make sure she gets them that way she won’t get them again. I also passed the pox onto my sister so that took care of that. I guess it is better to get the pox when you are younger that way it isn’t as bad.
That was the good part of that memory. The bad part was when I actually got the chicken pox. I can remember laying in bed and tears falling down my cheeks. I was scared. My whole body itched and I felt like I was going to die, because my grandpa couldn’t come near me. He did not know if he had had chicken pox when he was younger and at his age it was more dangerous so he stayed away from me. I shouldn’t have felt hurt that he stayed away but I did.
I also remember sitting outside on my grandma’s lap. I was itching so badly. She said “Angela you’re making me itch too.” I thought that was so funny.
Well, those are the memories that came back to me today and I wanted to share.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
08252008 Angela Cullen and Gregory
Originally uploaded by smileahug.
So few pictures I have of the three of us together. Here is one though.
When I was 16 (ten years ago I can’t believe it) I didn’t quite see myself in the place I am today. I knew I wanted to get married and have children, but I didn’t expect it to happen quite so quickly. At age 16 I thought that age 26 was such a long way off. Ten years has passed and I don’t know how I lost count of all the days. I do know that after Gregory was born time passed twice as fast if not quicker than that. I feel that if I sit down too long I will be forty, fifty, sixty… This makes me want to hold on to the seconds tighter. Every moment I try to hold and never pass up a hug or a kiss. Little things are what make my day so much brighter.
Yesterday I got home from work and I was eating dinner when Gregory said “How was your day work?”
Then that night Gregory took my face and held both my cheeks and said “Mommy you so cute”.
And when Cullen gets my ice water at night and goes to the effort of heating me up my shoulder wrap.
Also when he calls me from his work and says “I’m having a good day”. And I know this means that he caught someone shoplifting and prevented it. I know this is the detective in my husband.
And tonight after I post this how Cullen will play cards with me even though he would rather watch TV or get on his computer, but he plays cards with me, because it will make me happy.
So goodnight, I am off to play cards.
I will be around, but my seconds have been busier than normal lately.