Saturday, August 09, 2008
Blocking out frustration isn't easy, but it is sometimes best
How quickly life goes bye day, by week, by month, by year. In this case it is the week that I am referring to. I can hardly believe it is Saturday. As I sit here at my computer typing I can hear my precious child sleeping in his bed room, his bright yellow bed room. The color he loves. He is lying in his bed surrounded by the toys he delights in playing with. His slide, his cars, his kitchen set, and his books that he could sit with and look at for many hours. He has all these wonderful things but he gladly leaves them to spend time with Daddy or Me. Grandpa picked me up from work today and drove me home. After picking up Gregory from Ms. Linda’s house we went home. Grandpa asked to see Gregory’s room and Gregory was so very excited to show Grandpa. That excitement, that delight is quite something really. I have tried to keep it alive in myself, but with age come life experiences that change the feel of life, the taste of it. Which in life is not as sweet as it once was, but in some parts still exists. How easily a giggle, a laugh comes to him. This joy that Gregory has in even the smallest things. I know I once had and still do. This week’s frustrations have let many negative emotions come in. Things I have had a hard time blocking out. Cullen is also dealing with similar feelings although his come from a different source than mine. Our frustrations are sucking our energy. Which if we just looked at Gregory we should know life is alright and it will be ok. The hard part is letting go so that we can move on with the day and be happy. We are happy together. The part about blocking out the outside pressures is what we are having a hard time with. So, tomorrow we will just breathe and enjoy each other. Tonight we will rest.