Baby sitter issues and I couldn’t stop typing

Two days ago my babysitter told me that she couldn’t baby-sit anymore because she needed more money. So I told her I would pay her more, because she said she needed to make more. Today she tells me she is leaving the country to see her Grandma, because her Grandma is sick. Now I am frustrated first of all this leaves me in a bit of a predicament, because I need someone to watch Gregory and secondly you don’t just tell someone that you can’t watch their kid so they have less than half a week to find a new sitter. Arg!!! I am paying for daycare and I am paying for a babysitter. With the two combined I am paying tooooooo much! The baby sitter was only watching Gregory for about six hours a week. Why does child care have to be so expensive? Now I just have to deal and find a new sitter. When the sitter gets back I don’t know if I want her as the sitter anymore because I have a problem with someone leaving me hanging on a moments notice. I understand about her family emergency. What I don’t understand is the part where she thought it was ok to tell me she was not going to watch my son and give me less than a weeks notice and all because she wanted to quit and make more money elsewhere. So now I am sitter hunting. I love the daycare. Maybe my daycare lady will know a sitter. Hum…

On another issue, I only did three massages today. I really wanted more. It is just frustrating to be at work for eight hours and only work for three. I think I am going to have to bring something to do. I hate to lug my laptop with me to work, but maybe I could get some writing done. I got paid today, yea!

I mentioned my sinuses were bothering me today and someone asked me if I was ever ok. I am ok I just am use to living in some sort of pain. I have countless headaches and some sort of body pain almost every day. I guess I shouldn’t mention my pain to people. I don’t want people think I am dieing or anything. I also don’t want anyone to think I complain too much. So for now on I will just say I am feeling alright and not mention any ailment that I may have. After all most people really don’t care anyway. They just ask to be polite. I figure why ask if you don’t want a real answer. Just the same I will keep my pain to myself from now on. I may share it with you guys though and if you don’t want to hear about it you just can quit reading. I love you guys and all your wonderful comments. It is nice to know that someone cares about my stupid problems even if they may be silly. And even if I mention the same thing over and over again. Like the fact that I miss my little Gregory. I miss him sooooo much. I loved being with him every day. My perfect job situation would be where I work but only two days a week and the rest I would spend with Gregory. I do like that because I am working full time Cullen helps with the house work and we now have the money we were short every month. Oh well, it is, as it is and I do like my coworkers.

My mom just called me for advice of what to get her boyfriend’s daughter for her baby shower. I feel important. It is nice to know that my mom looks to me as a knowledgeable person on the subject. Yes I do have a two year old and I know some about what is useful to a new mom. My mom does too, but think about it. My mom is asking me what a mom would like. So, I just think that is great. Yes I am a little nuts tonight. I was only planning on writing about my sitter issues but all this other stuff just rolled right out. Oops… I do feel a little better though. I was feeling down today. I am not sure why but I think it is Gregory withdrawal. I still just am not use to leaving him with other people while I go do something else like work. I don’t really feel guilty. I just miss him. I can’t stop thinking if I were at home we could take a nap together and I could hold him in my arms and smell his sweaty head. I love the smell of my son’s sweaty head. Yes, it is weird but still. I love the smell. I love his little hands and feet. I love the fact that he is infatuated with his shoes. I love his curly hair and the kisses he loves to give. I love it where he runs and nearly knocks me over giving me a huge hug. I love it when he tells me that he loves me and when he asks for a hug and a kiss all on his own. I just love that sweet kid so much I don’t know what to do.
Now I am crying, happy tears, but still. My hormones must be screwed up. I need to go get ready for bed. Goodnight dear friends.

Be careful what you steal

Yesterday I stayed home from work sick. Today I am not sick, but Gregory is. I think he has a sinus infection. Cullen is taking him to the doctor tomorrow.
I wanted to share a true story that Cullen told me.

This is a story about a friend of the daughter of one of the women Cullen works with. I will call her Anne because I don’t have any idea what the friend’s name was and it will be easier to tell the story with a name. Well, Anne was dog sitting for a family. She took care of the dog the first day and then came back the next day. Anne found the dog dead. This bothered her but she was not sure what to do. She called the vet and he said to bring the dog in to be cremated. Anne did not have a car and so she asked the vet if they could come pick up the dog. The vet said that she would have to find a way to get the dead dog to them. Well, being creative Anne got a suitcase and placed the dead dog in the suitcase. Then she headed off to catch the bus. While Anne was waiting for the bus a man asked Anne if he could help her with the suitcase because it looked heavy. The man then grabbed the suitcase and punched Anne in the face and ran off. Now can you imagine how surprised the suitcase thief was when he found the dead dog?
Now if only all thief’s could end up with dead dogs I think there would probably be less thief’s in the world, well at least ones that took suitcases.

Not now

It is raining leaf collecting will have to wait.

going to collect leaves

I am going to have a little spoiled boy for Christmas. I know he is going to love everything though. Now we just have to get the house decorated. We have a whole month which will go too quickly, but I am not worried about that. I get my second paycheck this Friday, yea! It is nice to be bringing in some money. It just makes things a lot more financially secure for us. I miss Gregory so much though. He is at such a cute stage. He interacts with me so much more than when he was younger. The activities we do together now are more structured. We can sit on the floor and play trains or go outside and collect leaves. Gregory can follow simple instructions. He has his cranky moments, but so do I. Gregory is also very perceptive on people’s emotions. When I get upset he comes over to me and says “hug” and then gives me a big hug. I guess because when he is upset or hurt I give him a hug he has picked up on this. A big hug from my son when I am upset always seems to calm me down whatever I am upset about. It works better than anything I have tried to calm myself with before. My son is my magic happy pill.
The weather hasn’t been too bad. I wish it would pick a temperature though. One day we need our winter coats and the next day we don’t need a coat at all. Virginia sure has funny weather. Well enough rambling for me. I am going to go play outside. Gregory and I are going to collect leaves.

Thanksgiving and more thoughts

Today I am home with my sweet son. We were just about to go outside, but did not make it out of the house before Gregory passed out. I went to the bathroom and Gregory lied down outside of the bathroom door and fell asleep. I carried him to bed and took off his shoes. I am going to get him up shortly because I want him to be able to play outside before it gets dark.
Thanksgiving went great. Cullen did all the cooking and all the cleaning up. How great is that. I did not have to do a thing. The food tasted great too. We all ate too much. I went into the bedroom for a minute and fell asleep on the bed. When I woke up I walked out into the living room and found Cullen asleep on the couch and Gregory asleep in his little chair. We all fell asleep after eating too much. We watched football and then watched the new Die Hard movie. Gregory slept through the movie. I did not want his little eyes to see all that violence. I did enjoy the movie very much. Cullen had bought a bottle of wine, but we did not open it we both couldn’t handle anything else in our stomach after eating so much. We also did not eat any of the pumpkin pie that was freshly baked that day. I guess our stomachs were not quite big enough. During the day we put up the artificial Christmas tree. We will put lights on it next weekend and the weekend after that we will put ornaments on the tree. It will just be easier not to do it in one day. Cullen grew up with real trees so he misses the smell. We bought a pine smelling candle. That will do for now. We aren’t going to get a real tree until we move into a townhouse or single family house. That probably won’t happen any time soon. We used this tree last year for the first time. I like it. I grew up with artificial trees though. I tend to kill plants and things like that so artificial things work so much better for me.
I don’t remember if I mentioned this or not but Gregory knows some of his colors. I think his favorite color is blue, because every time he is asked to pick something he picks the blue thing. The other day at the grocery store Gregory was asked if he wanted a lolly pop. He said “yes”. The pharmacist asked him what color. Gregory then said “blue” and picked the blue one out of her hand. He did the same thing last night with his vitamin. I have a smart little boy. Last Friday a girl from Cullen’s work watched Gregory. She had a lot of fun with Gregory and was surprised how polite he was. Cullen and I taught him to say please and thank you. He says it on his own we don’t have to make him do it. Too many kids now aday don’t have manners and don’t respect their parents or anyone for that matter. I think it is important and I am going to keep teaching Gregory to be polite. I think he will learn to stand up for him self on his own but if I need to teach him how to do that I will. It is a tough world, but I see no reason why you can’t stand up for yourself and be polite at the same time. Boy, growing up sure isn’t easy. I am still learning myself.
Now I think I am out of thoughts for the day. I have less and less thoughts the more I am at work. It seems to drain my thought process. Well have a super week! Maybe I will have more to say tomorrow.

Not as much to talk about

I am doing much better with my work schedule. I am still exhausted but it is doable exhaustion. Thursday I went out with the other massage therapists from work and had a few drinks. It was so nice to go out. I hadn’t done something like that in a long time. I thought once I started working I would have more to talk about but it is just the opposite. I seem to have even less to talk about. Much more was happening in my life when I was staying home full time with Gregory. Children are very eventful even when they are doing nothing. For instance Gregory can be playing quietly and all of the sudden a block could fly across the room. Nothing so eventful happens when I go to work. I am off on Mondays so today was somewhat more eventful than Tuesday through Saturday when I am at work and going to and from during most of the day. I put Gregory in daycare for a couple of hours so I could get the cleaning done. When I went to pick him up I walked a little passed the daycare lady’s house. Gregory saw me do this and started crying. I then knew I had missed the house. Poor kid thought I wasn’t even going to come get him. Then we went home to get Gregory a heavier jacket and because I unlocked the door Gregory had a fit he wanted to do it. He is unable to get the key in the door as of yet but he was mad that I did not let him do it. So, he had to cry for fifteen minutes. We finally got out and played. It was a lot of fun. When we were at the playground Gregory had a sip of water and splashed water on his face. He was able to communicate this to me. Which I think is super because I now know more of what his little brain is thinking. He said “Boo-boo water head”. This meant water got splashed on my face, fix it momma. Coming home we had the same key struggle. Cullen got home from work and we went shopping and after that we spent some time at home. Gregory’s hair is getting a little too long but it is still cute. With his lengthening hair you can put a hair scrunchy in it. That is what Gregory wanted me to do tonight. After I did so he went over to his daddy and said “me pretty” and he was. He is a very cute kid not only in looks but in personality. I just love his giggles and the times that I didn’t quite know what was funny, but laughed anyway because Gregory’s laugh was so contagious. Boy do I love my kid. Oh one more bragging point on the momma front. Today when I picked Gregory up from daycare they said that they were surprised how many body parts Gregory knew. They said that most kids his age only know the simple parts like arm or head but Gregory knew parts like chin and elbow too. Guess who taught my son those body parts like all the others, me. I guess I am a pretty good mother and I would say that is something to be proud of. YEA FOR ME.

Not as tired

Today, work went well. I did not get home till 9 pm so Gregory was asleep. I miss seeing him. Cullen won’t be home till after midnight. So I am in a sleepy house. It is sort of nice though. I mean the quiet. As to the beginning of this week I am tired but not exhausted like I was all of last week and the week before. I am getting use to this job thing. I will like my job even more once I get my first paycheck. I forgot my wallet today and I was praying that I had enough money on my metro card to make it to work. I did. Then I did not know if I would have enough to get home. Well, no wallet meant no money so I could not add to my metro card. As soon as I walked into work I was handed a twenty dollar cash tip I hadn’t picked up on Saturday. I was so happy. I stayed an extra hour today because management asked me to. Then I ended up waiting forty minutes at the bus stop for the bus. I must have just missed one and then a bus that should have stopped did not and kept right on driving. Arg! Oh well I made it home. So, even though this day has had a couple of bumps it turned out pretty good.

I almost forgot to tell you all. I got my name tag. YEA! I have a name.
Well, goodnight.

Just some craziness

Work is going great this week. I am getting use to the tired issue, but besides that all is great. Gregory was sick yesterday and Cullen took care of him all day. Yesterday is the first time Cullen has had to take care of Gregory when he was sick. Cullen is starting to understand that during the sick days it is hard to do anything else besides care for Gregory. I have been getting many compliments on my massages. Several people have told me that I gave them the best massage that they have ever had. I love those compliments. Yesterday was also crazy at work. First of all the computer system went out. No one had their appointment schedule. Well, except for me. My schedule ended up getting stuck on the screen. For once I got a good deal out of a disaster. I knew my schedule and no one else had their schedule. The people in booking should have printed out everyone’s schedule the night before, but of all nights to forget. It just was not the computer system in our spa but it was the system that many other businesses use. The second crazy thing that happened was that my sink in my massage room leaked and that is where I kept my coat and my bag. Luckily my bag was waterproof but my coat was not. My coat was soooooo soaked. Since the spa has a washer and dryer I went home with a dry coat. It is too cold outside to not have a coat.
Tonight Gregory got sent home with an accident report. Some other kid scratched Gregory on the face. Nothing too bad, but I still don’t want my baby getting hurt.
Gregory fell asleep before I got home tonight and it sounds like he is waking up, so I better go and check on my sweet love.

Oh SO tired

I am not use to this job thing, especially one that requires so much physical work. I do however enjoy my job and I think I went into the right field for me. I am a darn good massage therapist and I enjoy it. Gregory has been great adjusting to childcare and his babysitters. The first week Gregory was great. This week Gregory is acting like he is not so happy. Part of the reason is because he has gotten a runny nose and the other part is that Gregory is realizing this away from momma and daddy thing is not temporary. When Cullen has been dropping off Gregory in the morning he cries a little now. The first week he did not cry. The second thing is that Gregory is so much more clingy when I get home. Not only that but he is more cranky. I am sure part of this is due to him being tired, because he now gets up earlier than he had to before I started work. I think Gregory is missing me. He just wants me to hold him as soon as I get home from work and not let go of him even for a second. He doesn’t want me to go anywhere. I am just so glad I did not have to put him in childcare until now. All these changes just are not easy. The thing that makes this doable is that we needed the money and I enjoy my job. If I did not get paid enough or I didn’t like my job I would quit in a second to be home with Gregory. He just doesn’t seem as secure as he was when I was home with him. Well I have to do what I have to do.
I took my shower tonight and when I got out I heard Gregory screaming. I went and got him and held him in my bed. He is now sleeping on the bed. I can hear his little breath going in and out. It is so precious. I am so glad that Gregory is my little boy. You know motherhood is something special. Being Gregory’s mother I have had the strongest emotions of my life. Now that my little family is financially set with me bringing in a paycheck that issue is ok. Even though all this I am so glad I did not have to go to work full time until now.
I really like my coworkers. They are all very nice. I also get a little downtime at work and adult conversation, yea! Working is better than I thought it would be. I just hope this tired thing will be better soon. Massage Therapy is hard work and I am not use to having to get up in the morning. (yawn). Well I can’t think anymore tonight. So, night-night.

One week down, happy, but tired

I made it through the first week!!!
Yea!
I am tired.
I will go read blogs.
I can’t think right now.
Will let you know something when I can think.
Smiles!