I am not use to this job thing, especially one that requires so much physical work. I do however enjoy my job and I think I went into the right field for me. I am a darn good massage therapist and I enjoy it. Gregory has been great adjusting to childcare and his babysitters. The first week Gregory was great. This week Gregory is acting like he is not so happy. Part of the reason is because he has gotten a runny nose and the other part is that Gregory is realizing this away from momma and daddy thing is not temporary. When Cullen has been dropping off Gregory in the morning he cries a little now. The first week he did not cry. The second thing is that Gregory is so much more clingy when I get home. Not only that but he is more cranky. I am sure part of this is due to him being tired, because he now gets up earlier than he had to before I started work. I think Gregory is missing me. He just wants me to hold him as soon as I get home from work and not let go of him even for a second. He doesn’t want me to go anywhere. I am just so glad I did not have to put him in childcare until now. All these changes just are not easy. The thing that makes this doable is that we needed the money and I enjoy my job. If I did not get paid enough or I didn’t like my job I would quit in a second to be home with Gregory. He just doesn’t seem as secure as he was when I was home with him. Well I have to do what I have to do.
I took my shower tonight and when I got out I heard Gregory screaming. I went and got him and held him in my bed. He is now sleeping on the bed. I can hear his little breath going in and out. It is so precious. I am so glad that Gregory is my little boy. You know motherhood is something special. Being Gregory’s mother I have had the strongest emotions of my life. Now that my little family is financially set with me bringing in a paycheck that issue is ok. Even though all this I am so glad I did not have to go to work full time until now.
I really like my coworkers. They are all very nice. I also get a little downtime at work and adult conversation, yea! Working is better than I thought it would be. I just hope this tired thing will be better soon. Massage Therapy is hard work and I am not use to having to get up in the morning. (yawn). Well I can’t think anymore tonight. So, night-night.